Writing is hard. Like climbing the rocky side of a mountain to the top. You might slip or fall back, but once you get to the top, you know it was all worth it. I am currently reading the book This is The Story Of A Happy Marriage by Ann Patchett. In this book, Patchett states, “Why is it that we understand playing the cello will require work, but we attribute writing to the magic of inspiration. If a person of any age picked up the cello for the first time and said, “I’ll be playing in Carnegie Hall next month!” you would pity their delusion, yet beginning fiction writers all across the country polish up their best efforts and send them off to The New Yorker.”
Reading Patchett’s writing, gave me a peace of mind. I feel that through this internship and any time I attempt to write something, I put so much pressure on myself. I feel that if I am a writer, I should have a beam of inspiration to write the next best novel. I forget that this is very hard. Just like learning to play a sport or an instrument, it takes practice. It takes failed attempts, as well as, triumphant successes. It is important to learn that throughout my writing and really, throughout life, I will fall down. Much like Patchett’s professors, colleagues, and mentors in her life told her she needed to improve and how, I have Melissa. Melissa has been there to point out any areas of improvement that I may need. Constructive criticism is my best friend. Patchett’s mentors and Melissa could be compared to a watchdog. While a watchdog will bark at you if anything is wrong, they will also be a friend and show compassion when you most need it.
I will be successful. I want to remember to hold onto those successful moments because that is what will help me get up when I stumble. I want to remember that this is a learning process and with each failed attempt, I learn something new. Failure is growth and growth is success, so I will keep failing in order to succeed.
Here’s to many more failed attempts with hope to find a diamond in the rough. This internship has given me the room I’ve need to explore, try new things, fail, and succeed.